Random trail of thoughts...

You know...

I didn't picture myself being this slothful with my blogging when I pictured my plight in Utah.

I have lost roughly 85% of my desire/need/joy/creativity/etc. for blogging.

This week has been spring break for Gracie. I've tried to keep busy with things like buying a new car, going to lots of museums, playing with friends, aunts, cousins, etc.

Have I taken any pictures? Nope.

My daily computer time is usually spent skyping with Scott. It's hit or miss. Most of the time we just end up instant messaging, but when the video does work my heart melts.

To be able to see him move, smile, laugh and cry.

I'm not sure if it makes being away from him harder or easier, but I'm grateful.


Being in Utah has opened my eyes to some personal failings/weaknesses I've always known about. Yet somehow I'm more apt to releasing those issues when I'm with my mom and sisters. I guess there can be problems in being  "too comfortable". I've noticed my pride and slothfulness jumping out when I least expect them to. It's easy to be slothful when I have 5 other adults around me at all times.  It's easy to pass on the responsibility.

Last night I offended my mom and sisters. I didn't mean to...I was trying to help but they didn't see it like  that.  Then as I was reading the Book of Mormon this scripture hit me like a ton of bricks:

"See that ye are not lifted up in pride; yea, see that ye do not boast in your own wisdom, nor of your much strength. 
Use boldness, but not overbearance; and also see that ye bridle all your passions, that ye may be filled with love; see that ye refrain from idleness."     Alma 38:11-12